Where is happiness?

For the last year or better, i have gone through a version of hell that i would not wish on my enemies.  i do not have any enemies that i know of, but if i did i would not wish on them what i have gone through.  Much of the turmoil, heartache, suffering etc, i brought upon myself.  I lost everyday contact with the one person that sees me as the greatest Dad in the world.  I have to say that losing everyday contact with my Aiden has been and still is the toughest part of my life that I am dealing with right now.  I know it will never be the same, i actually do not want it the same really, but I would at least like to see him daily or atleast on a regular schedule.  Most of you know that his mother moved him to Nevada and since the move I have only been able to see him once.  Sure, i get to talk to him almost everyday, but it is nowhere near the same as holding him in my arms or playing games with him or taking him to the park, or giving him a hug, a kiss, tell him how very much i love him face to face.  for those of you that get to see your children on a regular daily basis, please please please cherish every moment, you never know when that time might be taken from you or you might lose that opportunity.  My heart aches for this little man everyday.  I hear him growing up so very far away from me and I do not get the chance to see him do so.  I get to hear about it from his mom or from him.  I was not there to see him ride his bike without training wheels, to see him go off on his first day of school.  I have missed so much in his life already and am sadned by what is in the future that i am sure I am going to miss.  Please people, never stop loving or spending time with your kids, and take serious advantage of having them in your life everyday.  I have a best friend that is going through the same thing I am everyday, and my heart bleeds for her because I know what she is going through.  I can only hope and pray that one day soon we will be able to see and spend time with our children again and watch them grow, laugh, and play.  I love you Aiden, with my entire heart.  You are my pride and joy, you make me proud everyday to be a father.  Please be safe everyday so you can someday soon return to me.